13 Jun What Do I Really Love?
What do you want? My mentor often asks that. Or rather, what do you love?
I’ve at times had an answer right off the cuff and other times I think that I don’t really know what I want. Something I’ve realized tho, in moments that I’m drawing a blank, is that the blockage is not that I don’t know what I want. If I’m honest with myself, I do. The blockage is that I don’t believe that what I want is attainable and therefore I won’t allow myself to love it.
The reason I’m drawing a blank is not for lack of knowing, it’s that my mind is trying to find something that I love within what I believe is possible.
He’ll often say, you don’t lack money (things, love, experiences), you lack space. The space to allow for the vision to sit in your heart. The space to start believing it’s possible. And the space to accept and appreciate it when it comes.
Shoot for the moon. Even if you miss, you’ll land among the stars.
You’ve probably seen that quote floating around. I’ve seen it attributed to both Les Brown and Norman Vincent Peale so hopefully one of those is true.
The point being, there is a fear of not reaching the thing I love. A fear of not being worthy of it or of being a failure if I aim for something and don’t achieve it. But there’s so much in the journey. Even if we don’t make it to the moon, we’re still among the stars! Is that not amazing in itself? Is the journey to the heavens in itself not something worth experiencing?
I’m challenging myself to allow a little room to dream big. Even if it’s too big. Even if I don’t ever believe it can happen. If it only comes to pass in a dream, at least I’ve had the experience of it in my imagination. And sometimes, even that’s enough.